Experiences of thesolitudeone

Middle finger and ring finger

2012-01-24T18:56:00.000-05:00

That's the salvation an obese man like me can really enjoy. What I mean, I can have an incredible start to my edging session using just my the fingertips of my middle and ring finger stroking my penis. I am lefty when it comes to masturbating so my middle finger was stroking the right side of my lower penis shaft while my ring finger played with the other side. Let me tell you, I do enjoy it. I do the stroking through my scrotum, so I am not touching the penis directly with my hand. When my penis goes soft (not unlike now), I have to dig deeper to reach it through my scrotum sack. Naturally that means I will be splitting my balls apart.

This is about the best feeling I ever have had while playing with my balls. I don't do that enough. I guess I don't because I think it is somewhat dirty. I mean my penis demands almost all of my attention and tells me that it is me that you are looking for.

I forget about playing with my balls and start applying a one finger stroke on my penis using only my middle finger tip. That's just so nice a feeling. I mean it's like driving a speedboat out on Cass Lake. I really can just bounce around applying just the right amount of touch to the underside of my erection (kind of like what I just went through). Oh my, that was good.

Then my index finger and thumb begin a dance with my penis. Oh my. That's starting to get out of control. The middle finger joins the fun. My penis is now outnumbered 3 to 1.

My penis is getting ready to share the initial wetness out of the hole at the end of my penis. Then my penis say es to me, hold on partner, that's a long way off. OK I say, you're the boss.

Yes I am and I can see dangerous curves just ahead and it's going to be rough. Before it's all said and done, those two goof balls who started it all will be back playing with me to.

What's great about that is they are all working together. All searching that one goal of displaying my semen in honer of female curves.

I need to say that I have been listening to WCSX HD2 this evening during this discourse. Peter Werby puts on one heck of a show day in and day out. His show is made up of what is now called classic rock.

My catch towel in action

2012-01-20T19:16:00.000-05:00

http://www.xvideos.com/video420353/iris_collett_-_slow_wet_and_easy

I found this video to be very enjoyable to watch. It is kind of nice that the sounds that are captured by the microphone adds a bit to the experience. The bed creaks just a bit, the bed covers make soft noises, the female is a dream come true and in the background you can hear in the distance a train horn.

I was trying to choke off my ejaculation to make several powerful explosions of my semen on my catch towel, but my penis had other plans. There was no forceful outburst, just multiple thick releases. A bunch of my semen ended up on the back of my index finger (not shown). There was also a long string of semen dangling from the index finger fingerprint to the center of my palm (also not shown). The semen was strung out like the monster cables of a suspension bridge.

It had been a couple of days since my last release and the amount of semen I expelled was a large amount by my standards. It also was a rather fast session for me. No time to edge this time. It was only about 1/2 hour from start to finish. I just might try again a bit later and give the old boy a proper workout.

Rebel

2012-01-18T20:37:00.000-05:00

I am in the state of rebellion. I am moving in the general direction of having the pleasure I receive from masturbating take over my life. The pre-planning that my unconscious mind is doing to intensify my ejaculation is becoming overpowering.

Is the love I have for female curves something that makes me crazy? I believe in my case, it does. I have no other choice than to abuse myself when female curves take over.

Masturbation is my way of letting females know how much I love them and their curves. I am obese and as such food has been major part of my life for a very long time. Lately I am thinking less about food and more about female curves.

The rebel in me is scared. The pleasure of sharing my love of female curves and the erect penis I get with others is becoming a problem. The pleasure of masturbation I enjoy has always been a solo affair. The rebel in me does not want to share it with anyone else, but I do want to watch, but not be watched. I have got to be crazy to deny myself the fun I would have masturbating with someone else on the Internet. I am afraid I would not be welcomed because I am obese.

Recently, I went on Chat roulette while wearing a ski mask. I cannot bring myself to expose my face. My naked huge belly is fully exposed, but my penis is only on the fringe of the view. I click real fast to jump to the next view most of the time when I see a solo male looking back at me. I beat him to the punch because I want to see females, I then enjoy seeing how long females will watch me masturbating. So far, I have not been watched by females except the one time where a couple of young girls burst out laughing while watching me. Needless to say they clicked on to the next camera view real fast. Hey, what can I say, I thought it was kind of cool just the same. I got my feet wet so to speak. Maybe next time a female(s) might watch me a bit longer while I stroke my penis. Ejaculating would be so great for the shy guy that I am.

I am also looking at cam4com, but I only watch there. The rebel in me is wanting me to appear on camera, but I am just not ready.

I am finding that my tastes in pornography knows no bounds (at least, not yet). I love the videos where the people are real and the male penis is out there for all to see while the females are at least semi clothed. I love when the females in the videos do things that are natural and innocent. Everyday people having fun letting ejaculations take place where the semen leaving the penis is exposed for all to see. Oh, I enjoy watching that.

The rebel in me is taking over.

I love a big cumshot - XVIDEOS.COM

2012-01-14T19:24:00.000-05:00

I love a big cumshot - XVIDEOS.COM I found this to be very enjoyable. A couple willing to share something like this with me (the chronic masturbator that I am) has always been one of my favorites. I have never experienced anything like this and I find it very stimulating to think how much fun it would really be. Well, maybe one day I might, but until then masturbation works just as well.

Azimi - long leg jap - XVIDEOS.COM

2012-01-10T00:53:00.000-05:00

Azimi - long leg jap - XVIDEOS.COM

2012-01-08T23:14:00.002-05:00

Ball Sack

2012-01-07T22:34:00.000-05:00

I am enjoying playing with my balls. My ball sack is fun to play with when I play with my balls. My ball sack is far larger than my penis. Because my ball sack is so large I get the added benefit of playing with my penis without ever touching my penis with my fingers. I get to wrap my penis with my ball sack and then touch my penis. It is a nice fun way to masturbate before getting down to the task at hand.

Jacking off and tasting my own ass - XTube Porn Video - queerpunksrule

2012-01-04T19:07:00.000-05:00

Jacking off and tasting my own ass - XTube Porn Video - queerpunksrule

Adult Lounge: Natalie Kriz Wearing No Panty

2012-01-01T19:06:00.000-05:00

Adult Lounge: Natalie Kriz Wearing No Panty: Natalie Kriz Wearing No Panty

2011-12-29T22:26:00.002-05:00

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2011-12-20T22:32:00.001-05:00

2011-12-15T14:16:00.002-05:00

I Want REAL SEX!!

2011-12-14T23:28:00.000-05:00

2011-12-12T04:03:00.001-05:00

2011-12-04T17:15:00.001-05:00

KID GETS CAUGHT JERKING OFF

2011-12-04T01:40:00.000-05:00

Peeing during Sex?!

2011-12-04T01:28:00.000-05:00

Asian girl in stockings sucking guy nipples while jerking of - XVIDEOS.COM

2011-11-26T07:50:00.000-05:00

Asian girl in stockings sucking guy nipples while jerking of - XVIDEOS.COM

2011-11-25T00:19:00.001-05:00

Real Love-Mary j. Blige

2011-11-24T04:36:00.000-05:00

Part 3 of 3. Yeah, I finally made it (not really, many near climaxes to go)

2011-11-20T18:50:00.001-05:00

I have to get going now, but before I go, I need to make a confession. I like to masturbate while going through this website. Somehow when I look at these fountains, it seems natural to want to play with myself. If I really look at just about any fountain, I can relate it's shape to the shape of the male penis. If I really think real hard, I then begin to think of female curves. Gosh, I love female curves. The real question is how come I always think of the fountains like a male penis before then relating the fountains to female curves? A question for the ages. Some other time perhaps. It's fun to have a penis. Part two can be found a@http://corralingmythoughts.blogspot.com

2011-11-16T05:25:00.001-05:00

Gabrielle My First Time

2011-11-14T06:36:00.000-05:00

Gabrielle My First Time Thanks to 'As I Lay Stroking' for this fine selection. He has an eye for things worth watching.

Pee-Nut by PES

2011-11-13T00:22:00.000-05:00

Ah, that feels good

An Apple A Day

2011-11-11T01:35:00.000-05:00

An Apple A Day

I can't explain it. This got to me. I had fun watching this. I had so much fun watching this that I had to take a time out at 5 minutes and again at 6 minutes before I settled down into the rough and tumble world of stroking. I think I am in it for the long haul.

What I advise that you do the first (and maybe) only time you would ever watch something like this, is to concentrate on her belly button. Somewhere between 7 minutes in until the end of the video, I thought of some of the body movements that her skin was doing around her belly button. It kind of made me think of a women's mouth as she was speaking to me. The skin covers up her belly button and uncovers her belly button in such a way that it looked like it was forming words.

Anyway, back to my quest.

Just Looking, part 3

2011-11-11T00:14:00.001-05:00

My fingers are reaching ever closer to my genital area. I don't know how long I will be able to resist. I have got to start thinking of something else. I need to let my penis speak for itself. If it wants to get hard and moist on it's own, I don't have a problem with that. But the minute I feel it is in need of some handholding, I will answer the call.

Guys who love to play with their penis's, know what I mean. Sometimes it is necessary to, no that's not strong enough. We as edger's are genetically instilled to to play with our penis's. Wreak deadly havoc. Overpower the feeling of intense pleasure yet to come. One must postpone the final assault. There are plenty of skirmishes yet to come.

I would like to briefly extend my thanks to all who have served for our country on this Veterans Day, 2011.

Katy Perry - Teenage Dream

2011-11-08T17:15:00.000-05:00

Boy oh boy it must be fun being a adolescent male in these times. I can imagine how performers like this can get the juices coming. The beach scene in this video catches my attention. not only does it give a good view of an outline of a guys junk while wearing speedos while messing with a girl, but if you look you can clearly see her fur patch through the wet shorts she is wearing. Also look for her to spit while chasing the guy on the beach. The old fart that I am finds all this enjoyable to watch. Oh to be a teenager again.

Deep Creampie - XTube Porn Video - jenny5260

2011-10-30T21:51:00.000-04:00

Deep Creampie - XTube Porn Video - jenny5260

A dream handjob

2011-10-22T21:51:00.000-04:00

http://xhamster.com/movies/811720/asian_girl_slooow_tease.html

I wound not have lasted 5 minutes if it was me in this scene. How he can last is beyond me. It was well worth my time stroking my penis to the edge again and again before letting my semen escape while watching him lose his. Thumb's up for me.

Got me hard

2011-10-21T23:19:00.001-04:00

I enjoy candid videos like these. I find them great to masturbate to.

Asia Argento

2011-10-13T22:52:00.000-04:00

If you just glance at this photo, it almost looks like the head of a penis peaking out from the jeans that she is wearing. I wonder if that was the intent of the tattoo design that she had strategically placed on her body just so masturbators like me would enjoy it?

While sniffing around the Internet in preparation of masturbating a bit later, I came across the artist Asia Argento. I don't know anything about her or her films but I got to tell you, she has something that made my penis get stiff enough that I wanted to touch it. Yep, she's that good and I only watched a small 'free for viewing teaser scene' on a website. Good stuff.

The Tug Toner on Jimmy Kimmel Live 10/05/2011

2011-10-06T04:39:00.001-04:00

I found this parody sketch of exercise equipment for toning muscles incredibly funny. If The Tug Toner worked for me, my penis would be raw after my edging sessions (not that it is not already). I think it is great that adult content like this is showing up on broadcast TV.

Very beautiful music video - XVIDEOS.COM

2011-09-25T22:27:00.000-04:00

Very beautiful music video - XVIDEOS.COM

Messy

2011-09-25T19:41:00.000-04:00

While I am sitting on the toilet taking a piss I though to myself that guys come equipped with all that is necessary to have fun while pissing. Compared to girls, I mean. Yeah, when I guy takes a piss he has better control of the urine that he is expelling from his body compared to girls. Our urine is in the form of a steady stream whereas, a females urine flow goes every which way when she takes a piss. And girls call us, messy!

Then I though to myself that guys 'are' messy when they ejaculate if you ask girls (at least I think so). I also think that girls have got a point. I mean even I enjoy seeing a guy make a mess if when he ejaculates, his semen goes flying every which way in the air. I do share the joyful feeling that the performer (amateur or professional) is having while ejaculating. That powerful release by the performer always makes me smile.

SoBe Staring Contest with Kate Upton

2011-09-23T23:11:00.001-04:00

Woman sees red over lip-shaped urinals | Canada | News | Toronto Sun

2011-09-20T21:01:00.000-04:00

Woman sees red over lip-shaped urinals | Canada | News | Toronto Sun

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2011-09-06T03:25:00.002-04:00

He gets it even at his young age. The power females have over males cannot be denied.

Wow!

Pop goes the weasel.

Interesting.

I am fascinated by asians with a bit of meat on the bones. I would like to touch her all over. so soft and smooth.

2011-09-03T05:45:00.003-04:00

Beyonce - Run The World (Girls) [MUSIK VIDEO]

2011-08-23T01:04:00.001-04:00

Oh yes they do and I for one could not be happier. i so much enjoy thinking of all that is female while I masturbate.

What an amazing display of penis control

2011-08-22T05:30:00.001-04:00

I enjoyed jacking off to this (big time pleasure).

2011-08-16T00:42:00.000-04:00

I would be looking as well

2011-08-13T19:21:00.004-04:00

I would be the guy in glasses watching while stuffing his face. The power females have cannot be denied.

I like

2011-08-02T23:58:00.001-04:00

I need to get this out of the way before continuing. I am not gay, although I do find something of the male anatomy that I really like seeing while watching porn on the Internet. It has to do with the guys balls.

When the male subject is having intercourse with the female I often get a kick out of watching the guys balls clanging off of the the females anatomy (her anal area). When I see his ball sack rocking back end forth while ramming the female with his penis and his ball sack hits her with his forward thrust, I have got to admit that I enjoy watching it.

What really turns me on about watching males while watching porn is when the guys ball sack tightens up while he is thrusting into her. I don't understand what is happening, but when the guys balls rise up and are on either side of the guys penis shaft, I like seeing that. I really like thinking about how good it must feel when that happens. Those feelings going from the balls to the brain must make the feelings going from the penis to the brain so much more enjoyable. It makes my own penis start to throb right now just thinking about it. It's that powerful a dream to me.

I think I know what I might try and do tonight and it won't be clanging my balls off of someones body this evening because there is no way that is going to happen. No, I think I will try and make my balls rise up. Sounds like fun. If at first I don't get it right, try, try again.

2011-07-30T23:18:00.001-04:00

More recent finds from various sites that enjoy posting female curves

2011-07-26T17:00:00.003-04:00

2011-07-24T03:17:00.002-04:00

Female yelps

2011-07-15T20:40:00.000-04:00

I believe that females have adapted to the change in males over generations of time. Because the penis has such a hold over males at times (a lot of times for me), the female knows how powerful the urge to masturbate is on males. Yelping while being taken by a male is the females response to the powerful feeling that the penis has on males and in a subtle way, brings focus back on her. Females want males to masturbate to them in their minds. Masturbate to me they say, leave your penis alone.

The struggle continues. Penis or curves, it's hard to choose. Oh heck, who am I kidding. My penis will win out. But there is no denying, curves will have a lot to do with it. Oh! Those curves.

2011-07-07T20:36:00.002-04:00

A perfect way to cum

2011-06-29T00:21:00.000-04:00

For me, I would love to cum while I was giving a massage to a naked female while I was naked also. Just think about how many ways you can touch and feel a females body all over. It gives me goose bumps just thinking about it. I would be all over that body with a fine tooth comb. That would be so much fun.

I would like to believe that I would be giving the female just what she needs. I am not talking about driving her crazy over her body, no, I mean starting her journey where she ends up having an orgasm for herself.

She would feel how soft and gentle my hands could be as I try to touch nerve endings that have never felt that way before. Everywhere. Hands, arms, head, torso, legs, feet. Each communicating to her minds eye how much I do adore curves. Oh, that would feel so good.

The female would be a long distance runner. I like to believe female athletes like to be touched all over. They have their mind and bodies so under control that they would really get into having a massage. In my opinion a marathoner needs to have the ability to focus on the goal just a tiny bit more than female athletes in general. Having the chance to massage a female long distance runner would be great. Letting her natural feelings take over. She would feed off of my desire to gently touch and stroke her. Her intensity would start to build.

She moves one hand gently down to her genitals while her other hand finds it's way to her mouth and breasts. She gives me permission to back away and nods her head in a sign telling me that it is fine to start to play with myself for the first time today. She knows that I must. I cannot be denied. The desire is too great, but I still want her permission anyway.

My mind would lose all control. My allegiance to female curves allows her to control me. In my mind she is making my penis start to feel incredible. This in turn causes my minds eye to hone in on each fantastic feeling that my penis nerve endings are sending to my brain. The effect that she and her curves have on me has made my penis become moist by my release of pre-cum. My penis begins to throb.

I cannot take my eyes off of her curves. I cannot touch my penis yet. My erection offering will have to do. There is just to much radiance that she is displaying for my pleasure. The surface of her skin shaped by her curves. Is there anything greater? She uses her curves so very well. Her movements a memorizing. I want to wrap my hand around my penis and lose control. I want to thrust my pelvis causing my erect penis to feel the sensation of the grip my hand has on it. I wait. There is just so much to enjoy of her curves. I cannot touch yet.

And then I ejaculate never having touched my penis at all. This all takes place in my mind. The power of female curves. She looks at me and knows that she has caused my penis to erupt all on her own. I never touched it. Oh, the power that she processes. I am forever your humble servant.

Oh, the pleasure that would be. All is right in the universe.

I am in love

2011-06-19T21:42:00.000-04:00

Yep, I finally admit it. I have been in love for a very long time so I believe I can speak with authority. For as long as I can remember (as far as my memory allows), I have known that there is just one thing that my world revolves around.

It's funny that I dream about doing things that would allow me to escape the spiral that is my life. Perform life for the benefit of others (something that I most often do reluctantly). No, I have a hard time understanding anything beyond my true love.

How great is that. I mean really, how great is that. While many are always in the pursuit of what life offers, a lucky few have all the answers that they need.

Hail, the almighty penis and the offering that it provides in honer of female curves. Thank you, your highness.

2011-06-18T23:22:00.002-04:00

2011-06-17T09:33:00.001-04:00

Recent discoveries that I found provocative and quite interesting.

Fun, fun, fun

Hook and Loop

Makes me want to feel those curves

While my penis is nowhere near this size, I believe that I am up to this gentleman's capabilities even holding more sand. Note his right hand in the photo.

I find the photographer has a thing for toes.

I mean really, how can you not get moist viewing this?

Simply stunning

Recent finds from the internet that are interesting to me and maybe you.

2011-06-13T07:55:00.000-04:00

2009-05-21 Gabrielle - Busty Star Part 2 - Imgur

2011-06-09T23:57:00.000-04:00

2009-05-21 Gabrielle - Busty Star Part 2 - Imgur

Divinyls - I Touch Myself

2011-06-05T23:31:00.000-04:00

Bucket List

2011-06-05T00:29:00.003-04:00

"Tent in your pants". That was mentioned in the TV show 'Community' that I watched via tape delay this evening. My mind as it so often does, began to wander.

I think it would be neat to find a female who would be willing to tell me about the first time that she could see that she was responsible for causing a tent in a guys pants. She could go into details of what she was thinking to herself. Could it be that at that instant, no matter how young or old she was at the time, she understood the power over men that she, as a women, possessed.

Then she would tell me the details of what she did the first time that she saw a tent in a guys pants that she created. Did she plan it or did it just happen. It does not matter to me if it was planned or not. Give me the details.

Oh, there are also a few additional details in this fantasy of mine. Yup, you guessed it, I would be naked and I would be masturbating. But that's not all. She would be naked and masturbating as well. A grand old time for all. Real sex. That would be real sex for me. We would also be in a room together. Anyone else could feel free to tag along as well. The more, the merrier.

She would go into details about how she set her trap. Even if she said she had a no trapping plan intent at the time she caused the tent in his pants, deep, deep down in what a women is, she knows that she has this power. The greatest power over males that exists.

Sounds like fun to me, but in the meantime solo masturbation will have to do. All the fun for the price of one.

2011-05-30T16:48:00.000-04:00

Penis Massage - Pornhub.com

2011-05-26T00:03:00.000-04:00

An incredible discovery while surfing for curves. Penis Massage - Pornhub.com

2011-05-17T09:12:00.000-04:00

Don't try to pin me down

2011-05-02T20:39:00.004-04:00

The first and one of the only sexual experiences I have had with another person (as far as I can remember) was with a friend. His name was Bobby. We were about oh, I would say, maybe 10 to 12 years old. I certainly can't remember the details as to how that happened. My memory is not able to focus on things for very long. Same as real life.

Anyway as I am getting lost in the details, suffice it to say Bobby and I touched the ends of our penises together. The heads. Skin to skin. I don't believe that I was masturbating at that age. How cool is that. The penis knows what it wants. It will find a way on it's own if it has to.

My penis is sending me constant reminders now. Telling me that I need to satisfy the urge that I have. I have got to explode. The problem is that if I don't shortly get nude, grab my catch towel and plop myself down in front of this dog gone confuser, I will continue to experience this intense feeling of pleasure down on my penis and still not having touched it. Neat-o.

The ups and the downs of the blood moving into my penis, really is having an effect on me. I believe that I just had the sensation that my penis is leaking pre-cum.

I just arched my back as far as it would go, directing all of my energy down at the root of my penis. The energy was aligned. My entire body was contributing in the effort to engorge my penis with blood. That felt real good. My penis did not get hard that time. I am sure, given enough time and effort, my penis will get hard and my release will have been worth the effort.

So i guess what I am trying to say is, maybe, that might be part of my problem. What does it mean when a guy who so much loves females and there curves, has his first juvenile sexual experience turn out to be with another guy? I guess I need to think about that. Meantime the only skin to skin time I can for see that I will be doing (and doing shortly) involves my penis and my hand.

I really do need to ejaculate.

VIDEO ROMANTICO

2011-04-30T18:40:00.000-04:00

I found this interesting because she is a knockout. Makes me want to loose control and I am fine with that.

60 Minutes and counting

2011-04-24T20:54:00.004-04:00

60 Minutes was great tonight. They did a piece about this very rich guy born just down the road a bit from here (so to speak). His goal is to give away his fortune before he dies. This guy is really having fun and he gets to play games with the people he gives his money to. I sure can see the fun in that.

The other story was about a monastery over in Greece. I have got to tell you that those monks are having a blast. They are so devoted to their cause that they are never without it. I mean 24/7. I really don't know how they do it. Heck, I have a hard time understanding that, but I will take there word for it. Normal procedure for me.

These monks up on cliffs in Greece don't allow females on the monastery property. All it is, is the monks. Contact with the outside world is frowned upon. Just them and there religion.

I had a goofy thought while reviewing what memory I have of the show earlier this evening and I thought to myself, I wonder how many of the monks succumb to there penis. Come on, those guys would not be able to say that they have not wondered a few times during the time that they spent up on those cliffs. They may be monks, but I have to believe that a whole bunch of those guys sometimes think about females. And on occasion, I bet a few of the monks rubbed down what was bothering them (in a good way). I think I would like to believe that any male with a penis would from time to time masturbate. I mean really, how can they not? It provides so much pleasure.

I sure am glad that there is no denying the effect of what masturbation has on me. Self gratification is a gift of nature. There's nothing wrong with that. Why does the world look down upon it. Masturbation that Is? Why am I ashamed to admit it to the rest of the world? It's my choice I guess. I don't think that I am at a stage where I can share the experience of masturbation in real life. But it sure makes my penis feel good thinking about what it would be like if I did.

Those monks up on the cliffs can't wait until they can be with God knowing full well that they have to die to accomplish that. Talk about dreaming. To hard for me, so I decided to find my heaven while I am still living. I mean really. I am doing what I was put on this earth to do. I expel my seed. There is no resisting. I have to do it. It's my way of leaving a mark and I am fully capable of doing it on my own, thank you.

I am so very blessed to be in love with female curves. I worship females. Females were put on this earth to make penises become erect and they do a darn good job. They are good for just about anything else in this world as well. I mean really, they do have a charm all there own. There curves. Nothing else matters when my penis calls. I may not know how I will reach ejaculation, but I can guarantee that it will be fun. Speaking of fun, I need to have some now. I am sure that you know what I mean.

2011-04-12T15:10:00.000-04:00

2011-04-10T15:14:00.001-04:00

I am a manly guy

2011-03-30T22:00:00.003-04:00

As I was trying to bring the universe into focus, my minds eye was looking at the universe with cross hairs. Trying to find somewhere in this universe where I should be focusing my attention. I will save that thought for later. Anyway, a manly guy is a guy whose is able to experience masturbating and tries to use cross hairs to guide him along the way.

I guess what I am trying to say is that most heterosexual males in my opinion are preoccupied in the goal of ejaculating or trying to ejaculate somewhere in or on, a female. Their focus is not in focus with their penis. It's natural and perfectly healthy to be that way.

I think my genes have me set up to be a bit different. While I am a heterosexual male, my ultimate goal is to fully enjoy the ultimate shooting of my ejaculate. I don't have to have an ultimate goal of cumming in or on, a female.

I am one who sees the pure joy of imagining that I am ejaculating to all females. Yeah, that's what I think I am, a manly guy. It is so much fun.

2011-03-21T00:05:00.001-04:00

Crusty catch towel

2011-03-13T15:44:00.004-04:00

While I was preparing to sit myself down in front of my computer I looked at and touched my somewhat used catch towel as I unfolded it and placed it on my chair. I could see a couple of stains that had seeped from the inside surface of the fabric to the outside surface of the towel. It was by now, dry and crusty. It made me smile when I began to ponder in my mind what all that dry crust made me feel like when it was inside my body. Oh yeah, I can't leave out that I very much enjoyed the process of making it leave my body as well. Well, I guess I could go on and on about things that I experience, but my penis is sending me signals that I have a new addition of semen that needs to be applied to my catch towel. Ah, if crusty old catch towels could speak.

2 no touchy, 1 incredible touchy

2011-03-09T18:01:00.002-05:00

2011-03-03T02:08:00.001-05:00

The fun of it all

2011-02-25T16:27:00.004-05:00

There are times that I would like to show off my penis hoping that females would take notice, but I know that one reason I would not would be due to shyness and embarrassment. But in my mind I can think about how very cool that would be and how much it turns me on. It is totally awesome that I have been blessed with the penis that I have. I am able to find an incredible amount of pleasure from stroking and teasing it all the while understanding that the closer to the edge I choose to go brings an increased desire to release my seed, sharing it with the universe.

Just imagine what the females who see the bulges under the tight fitting clothing think about while looking at it. Do they have thoughts in a female way kind of like I do while looking at women's curves? Does it give them the same genital response that I get? Does it make them want to masturbate? The immense pleasure, Oh my. How cool is that?

Take a better look at pictures 2, 3 and 4 (from top to bottom). Each one is a picture of the same guy and he hangs right in two of the pictures and left in one of the pictures. Penises really can be fun to play with. Do you think he does that knowing that perverts like me would notice? Or maybe his penis started out hanging to the same side and somehow ended up hanging the other way when the photos were taken. I could see that happening with my small penis, but really, could it actually happen to his? Not likely, but fun to think about, oh yeah. Imagine the feelings that his penis would be sending to his mind during the movement from one side to the other.

Yep, bike riders, swimmers and track and field guys can all have some fun openly displaying the size and shape of their manhood's. So much so that often while watching television sports the camera men will only show the guys from the waist up because the genitals are so openly displayed. Putting it out there for all the females to look at, point too, giggle and talk about. So much fun for all involved. Kind of makes you want to think about playing with your penis right now and see how far you can shoot your cum. And maybe if you happen to be with a friend, you could turn it into a competition to see who can shoot furthest or make the biggest mess. No losers, everybody wins.

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2011-02-04T09:16:00.002-05:00

Another batch of interesting to me finds. As always, the fat guys I show are not me, but I am as big or bigger than all I post. I give them a thumbs up for being so secure in their bodies that then are willing to share. This guy has a belly as big as mine and as you can see, his penis is very well hidden like mine.

I Don't Know

2011-01-28T00:49:00.005-05:00

I don't know why out of the blue I started tightening and loosening the muscles in my groin region. I don't know why, but I don't care. It's been a long time since I have had some good old fashioned 'me time'. Yea, recently I have been enjoying some staged and scheduled 'me time' and not any spontaneous time just for me. It's not bad, not bad at all. It's just that when it is spontaneous, it can at times be so much more.

I experienced a false start just the other night with a similar sensation down in my groin area shortly after I had retired for the evening. Oh ya, I had some nice feelings all without one itty bitty touch by my hand to my penis. I could not get my penis to start to grow. Of course I really did not try hard because I did need the sleep. So when it came time to rub my scrotum caped penis between my legs, I passed.

Funny, but that was fine. I would clench my root muscles and relax my root muscles to stimulate the nerves in my penis. I mean I was able to enjoy the weak signals that my penis nerves were sending to my brain, all the while remaining soft.

Never touched it, never rubbed it, never began to grow, but pleasure was received just the same.

I am going to try tonight, too just go and see where it takes me. The Internet is a great asset for obese hermits like me. Oh ya, the clenching and relaxing has begun. I feel the need to extend a hand in my effort to start this journey getting in touch with my penis. A few pretty faces with wonderful hair and eyes to match will be a welcome sight just a bit later. Can't forget the breasts, the waists, the stomachs , the hips and the legs. Oh yea, fun, fun, fun.

I will enjoy it all and then I will be happy to enjoy all of the closeups of the female genital area. I really like to imagine what it would be like to give pleasure to a female in that area. I mean really, can it get much better. That statement applies to me and maybe other obese guys like me who have bellies so large and penises so relatively small (compared to the belly). Guys who cannot have intercourse with a female. Guys who would like to take females over the edge without using their penises.

After doing a bit of searching on the Internet and finding what interests me, I will expel my seed, in honour of the females of the world. Thank you each and every one. This ejaculation is for you.

2011-01-20T07:07:00.003-05:00

Really, this is not an endorsement

2011-01-12T22:52:00.006-05:00

I just got done watching the first disc of the second season of 'Weeds'. Boy, did I enjoy it. The scene where the young boy is being educated on how to thoroughly enjoy what nature has given him between his legs. It is so darn funny, it had me leaning forward in my chair, throwing my arms up and laughing out loud. My body was in the mood to turn me on and I was feeling it. Needless to say, I pulled up the drawstring waist on my shorts with my right thumb which also caught the waist of my boxers. That allowed my left hand to reach down and grab a hold of my testicles and then give a few tugs on my now erect penis. It felt good.

What really got me going was a scene from another episode where a women (a joy to behold), straps on one of those rubber penis's with the intent of ramming it up the anus of the guy she was with. It was obvious that this was new to him. It got me to thinking about how scared and excited I would be if I ever was put into a situation like that. This rubber dick was huge and the girl said with authority to the guy that it would fit after he expressed fear of having that rubber dick shoved into his behind. That had me feeling up my erect penis again. I like to see women who know what they like and are willing to express themselves to get it. Oh, the ultimate power that women possess makes my penis get hard every time.

But, dare I say it, anus play just might feel good. I mean so good that it would want to make me want to masturbate and ejaculate spilling my seed. Heck, even if it hurt like hell having something that big rammed up my anus, which I expect it would, I think I would still want to stroke my penis. Heck yea, I like to masturbate. Sounds like a win win situation to me.

Having something rammed up one's behind does not mean that he's gay, does it? Not that there is anything wrong with that. I say whatever floats your boat is fine by me. At this stage of my life, women still are what I want to masturbate to. Yup, I think I need to fine some curves right now. Good idea. Thank you females of the world.

Abby Winters

2011-01-07T19:24:00.003-05:00

Please understand that this is not a plug for Abby winters.com. I only want to tell you that it is one incredible website. Incredible, if like me, you are a sucker with a hard dick who just adores the naked female form. I mean whats not to like? My penis is already plunging into my catch towel that I am sitting on covering the chair I am sitting on while making this entry.

I just had to stand up and readjust the position that my penis and ball sack are in. Mashed down as they were, it was getting uncomfortable. Now that they are free I am tempted to latch onto my penis and start to feel it up all over.

I started touching my ball sack and feeling the somewhat rough skin. Time to give my left testicle a touchy and freely. Grabbing and touching and squeezing my entire ball sack. My first knuckle of my left thumb below the nail is rubbing the underside of my penis while I am playing with my ball sack. Still have not starting the choking procedure. Still having to much fun with my balls.

While my thumb is having fun, the middle finger of my left hand is pushing ever so deep up under my balls into that void where you are able to stimulate your insides by touching. Side note: I truly wished that I could enjoy the sensation of a prostate stimulation. It does not seem to work for me.

Anyway, the tip of my finger starts to feel the underside of my penis root. When I side my finger down the root further and further, I believe that I am approaching areas that I rarely experience.

I am now taking my left thumb and placing it on the top of my penis root and am trying to enjoy the feelings that are arriving in my brain. Still no touching of my penis directly, but it won't be long.

I can no longer delay the pleasure. Oh boy that feels good. I know what goes good with that. Some naked females. Oh boy.

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15 degrees outside

2010-12-13T10:53:00.003-05:00

I woke up today with a 6" snowfall with 2' icicle's outside. I am being graced by having a bright sun shining morning with a pale blue sky and limited clouds. What clouds are there, are not seen for long through my window with the brisk wind outside. The bushes and trees have a layer of snow on them weighing them down.

Went out to the front porch to smoke a bowl and almost froze. I had to put my gloves on in between taking hits from my bong. It is that cold outside. I plan on abusing my penis shortly. It's a wonderful day.

I had a chuckle to myself thinking about how difficult it would be for me to masturbate this morning while sitting on the swing out on the front porch. I would wear my self out taking off and putting on my gloves while beating off. Just to clarify. I would never do that during the daylight hours. I have no desire to be arrested. When the time is right (nighttime), sometime in the future I may give masturbating while wearing gloves a try. Who knows, it just might be fun to feel doing it. Speaking of fun and feeling it, I am on the upward slope of my high and I can already feel the rumblings of a woody trying to escape the shroud that is me that traps my penis between my body and the chair while sitting on my crusty catch towel.

It's that great feeling that I get when I can direct all of my energies towards imitating the feeling that I get while expelling my seed. The only difference is that I know that I have not reached anywhere close to the level of intensity that is required for me to ejaculate. In a sense, it is like a false positive. Everything is lined up and ready to go except that there is not enough fuel (curves) in the tank for liftoff. I guess that is what is meant when something is referred to as a dry run. Yea, that sounds like it, a dry run. I have enjoyed two so far and it's only been about a half hour. I think now is the time to devote some time to increasing the episodes of pleasure that my penis is experiencing. Oh, here comes another. Not long lasting but nice. Oh look (I can't see it), but it feels like my penis is pushing it's way free. I am enjoying feeling the loops of cotton that make up my catch towel is providing while my penis stiffens. Fun, fun, fun.

My penis is free and hard now. I still have not touched it, but it is sending signals back to my body that I need to start thrusting my penis in an attempt to insert my penis in a female. Fat chance of that ever happening. My body is trying to collect itself by starting to shiver. Trying to organize the patterns of breathing in and out where I am able to discern the pleasure that my penis is capable of giving me. I can't keep my hands away much longer. Maybe I should put on my gloves before proceeding. Na, I am having to much fun just like it is.

Just think of those hips, those waists, those breasts, those legs, the hair, the face, the eyes. It's enough to make a chronic masturbater want to masturbate one more time.

Did I ever tell you that I am a dirty, filthy old man. Well in this sense it is true. I have not showered in a few days and to put it mildly, I smell and not in a good way. But as long as I am what I am, I might as well use it to my advantage. Not ever experiencing the smells of sex with another person, the stinky smells of me will have to do. It's the kind of smell that you know is bad, but you take a sniff anyway. The nice thing about this smell is that the more moisture that comes from my penis, the more that the smell starts to smell good.

Oh ya, I have started to thrust with a soft moist penis. Trying to slow start my woody still without touching. Touching begins shortly. Time to search out curves.

2010-12-12T08:56:00.002-05:00

Fantasy

2010-12-10T02:30:00.003-05:00

I like to imagine that while I am naked and jerking off in front of a female she cups her hand under the head of my penis and then instructs me to cum in her hand. After I have finished dribbling the last of my sticky goo she takes the fingers of her other hand and dips her fingers in the goo then commands that I open my mouth. I plead with her not to make me taste my own cum, but she refuses my feeble request. She than deposits my cum on my tongue, tells me to lick my cum off of her fingers and tells me to taste it. Then she commands me to swallow. Never having done this before, tears well up in my eyes while I realize what I have done. Then she continues placing more gooey finger tips in my mouth making me swallow again and again. She takes some cum to her tongue and tells me to lick it off her tongue which I do. Then she licks my face. Then she makes me lick the remaining cum out of her other hand. While I am licking, she rubs her hand all over my face leaving my goo on my mouth, nose and cheeks. After I have licked her hand clean, she notices that I have not gotten all of my goo from in between her fingers. She then runs her fingers through my hair in an attempt to rid her hand of my semen. When she is done, she taps me on the head and says to me 'good little boy, now was that so bad?' while gently playing with my penis and scrotum with her other hand. She tells me that the next time I will be better and she starts jerking my penis to get me to ejaculate again for her. I tell her that its to soon, I need more time to recover. She refuses to stop until I deposit a much smaller amount of goo into her hand and the process begins again while she is laughing harder and harder. Through it all in the back of my mind I say to myself that I am the luckiest guy in the world who can get so much enjoyment by getting hard for females and there curves.

Can there be no doubt

2010-12-10T00:41:00.003-05:00

Sure, there is nothing finer in life than to fall in love with what female curves make me want to do. It just gives me so much pleasure to play with myself. Females seem to always tease with my mind. Can you really blame me for falling under their spell? I mean gee whiz, why do they always find ways to show off those curves. Don't they know the effect that they are having on me?

One thing that I believe is true is that females really don't understand what it is to ejaculate. The incredible feeling that I get when I can no longer prevent my seed from escaping my body. I mean gee whiz, females have orgasms and I am sure that it is wonderful, but really can there be nothing better than spilling ones own seed out into the world.

Time to put my very relaxed body into overdrive. I say relaxed because today I took a sauna. Also took one a couple of days ago. Tried to sweat away some of the bad toxins in my body. A sauna can really put me into a relaxed state. It has been decades since I have enjoyed a sauna. I just might make it a regular thing. Time to head back to the front porch to finish off that bowl before shifting gears.

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2010-11-28T06:48:00.001-05:00

I moaned

2010-11-21T18:36:00.002-05:00

I am experiencing a real good masturbation this evening and I have not touched my penis yet. Oh ya, I have shook the daylights out of it by playing with my second belly. The one below the belt line. That was fun. It caused me to moan in pleasure.

Now it's time to get down to business and see where that goes. I know the ending. Getting there, now that's going to be fun.

59 years old and still loves beating off. Am I lucky or what. Thank you, female curves.

2010-11-20T03:52:00.001-05:00

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Shes back

2010-10-13T15:06:00.006-04:00

When I went to the fitness room at the senior center today I was given a treat. This has happened 3 or 4 times to me recently. I guess I am picking a good time to exercise. You see, I get to enjoy watching a female run round and round on the track while I am exercising. The indoor track is on the outside edges of the room and the exercise equipment is inside of the track.

My dirty old pervert eye of mine has watched with pleasure this same woman running each time she passes by. Not that I don't people watch all of the females that walk by, it's just this ones special. You see, shes about my age and get this. Her face is pretty, she maintains her body well and she always wears body hugging attire. When I see her face I think of a 55 - 60 year old Jennifer Aniston. She has the same kind of different nose that Ms. Aniston does.

The body hugging sweat pants that she wears is not tight enough that I would be able to see an outline of panties underneath, but just tight enough to make it real interesting for this old hermit. She wears two shirts, one a "tee" type white shirt and on top of that a grey "muscle" shirt. They are both form hugging. I see no lose fabric while she runs. Her nicely sized breasts must be confined by a sports bra because there is not a lot of vertical movement that I can detect while she is running (although there is always a bit of movement - don't you know, he-he). I would think that with the size of her breasts in my eyes way of thinking, they should bounce a bit more, but they don't. It's great being able to think like this (being a closet pervert, that is).

Not many people male or female run/trot much on this track (it is a senior center anyway). Most people who use the track will walk, which she also does after completing her set distance. It's then that I get my best look at her as she walks by. I try not to be overt when she runs or walks although I think I would be justified in doing so. I am a dirty, obese, shy, smelly, hermit, masturbator anyway. I find that she does not take peeks to see if she is attracting an audience (an audience of one anyway). So many females strut there stuff trying to get attention and get pleasure seeing that they are getting results. This lady does not show any of that.

So short of exercising at the malls before the stores open where I people watch (females mostly), this is the next best thing. I can't say that I get hard while watching this lovely female because I am trying to workout my muscles and not my penis (which I do enough of already on my own).

I need to study the layout of the exercise room to try and get a better view of this wonderful creature while I exercise. While I was moving from one exercise machine to another it turned out that I was walking right at her. She was now done cooling down from her run and was on the floor doing some stretching exercises. I tell you I enjoyed watching. I was missing out on another golden opportunity to enjoy eye candy.

As I said before, she looks to be about my age. She probably weights in the 130# to 145# range. She is wearing a wedding ring and one day I did overhear her while she was talking to another senior. She was talking about her daughters experiences while being a freshmen and being housed at the West Quad.

She has breasts that would be nice to feel up and squeeze over and over. Her waist does not seem to have any excess fat or fat rollover. This female does take care of herself. Oh and her hips have a real nice shape to them. Not too slim and not to large. Oh let me tell you what a joy it is watching her behind. I mean with each step that she takes, it's like watching a well oiled machine. Just the right amount of jiggle to make me want more.

When I got home today from the senior center I decided to lay down and listen to some music. Let me tell you, this lovely vision would not leave my mind. I have not yet begun to abuse my penis today but when I do, I am sure that my memory of her will not be far away in my mind.

Something I would like to get good at.

2010-10-09T22:39:00.004-04:00

So I get home from working out at the senior center, I turn on my Internet radio tuner and lay down on the bed while just in my boxers and start to enjoy listening to the music. One of my greatest joys is listening to music and doing it while in bed offers many options. I like to get into stretching, yawning and moving my (obese) body in a way that feels good while doing it. I have one of those memory foam mattresses and it is great even for someone of my massive size. I recommend the foam mattress as long as you order one with extra density like I did.

I seem to be getting off track again. While feeling good my penis gets hard for no particular reason (it's got a mind of it's own anyway). That naturally gets me to thinking about how much I enjoy thinking about females and the curves and other body parts that I really enjoy thinking about while masturbating.

While not touching my hard penis, my mind starts to think about female lips (not the ones on faces, the other ones). I begin to think that I would really enjoy being able to nibble on some female lips. I have only done that one time in my 59 year old life and looking back on it, I really don't remember much about it. It was not memorable because it was during a time in my life when I would roam the streets in the seedier parts of town while engaging street walkers for sex. I can't recommend it in this day and age. It's just to dangerous.

Can you imagine sucking on some street walkers lips late at night just before dawn. I did not think about it until later, but the slurping I was doing most likely included debris from her other encounters she had before mine that night. Oh my! I can't even get the nerve up to taste my own cum let alone anyone else's. I might have done it that night but I will never know.

I am getting off point again. So anyway while lying in bed my mind starts to think about how I would be able to perform if I ever was lucky to find a female who would be willing to have intimate relations with a fat old shy hermit like me. I know that my penis is average in size at best. I know that when I stand in front of a mirror while naked waiting for the hot water to make it to the shower, I can't see my penis because my huge belly and layers of fat below it keep it hidden from view even while hard. So impressing a female with my penis is out of the question. And I also have to consider that the fact that I would not be able to prolong being intimate with a female if she were she to play with my penis. I think I would pop the cork fairly quickly.

So I think to myself that I could make my points with a female by performing oral sex on her. I would gently feel and touch all around her genitals area in an attempt to make her feel good. I would gently bring my face up real close and examine the different areas of a females genital area. My warm breath on her lips would cause her to squirm. Frequently I would reach up with my hands and get a good feel of her breasts. By then my mind would be racing. I return to the genital area and make soft gentle strokes with my hands. Then I would gently stick my tongue out and ever so gently begin to lightly touch her genitals. Slowly I would begin to explore the entire region. All of the peaks and valleys would be touched but never spreading those gorgeous lips. It would be far to soon for that. I would raise up and gently stroke her soft smooth hair while gently giving her kissing on her neck, shoulders and face.

I would approach my desire to take her over the edge slowly. There is no need to rush things when it comes to pleasing a female (at least I think). From what I have been able to gather it takes a lot to get a female to have an orgasm and I would like to think that I just might be able to make a female feel real good.

I would like to be known for being able to please a female even if I am obese and have a average penis. I would like to think that she would not miss having a hard penis sliding in and out of her vagina. My hands and tongue would be all that she needed or wanted.

Yeah, I would like to think that I would be able to do something like that. I do like to dream. I like to pretend that it is me who I am watching on the computer screen during most of my edging sessions. I like to think that I am the one who is enjoying having sex with a female. It is me who is giving her the pleasure she deserves. I say deserves because I truly believe that females were placed on this earth to give males a reason to be. I like to feel it is my duty to present my seed when ever a female makes my penis get hard and starts to dribble a little bit of pre cum. Oh, the power those curves have over me.

Well now is the time for me to fulfill my duty. I need to say good night to you. I need to disrobe and begin my journey into fantasy land where I am all that a female needs or wants. I am here to pleasure her. Oh my, it's going to be fun tonight.

Wow

2010-10-08T02:11:00.003-04:00

Will you look at that. This is one cool photo. I can relate with this fellow having a small penis also. I have never had the fun this guy is experiencing. If I did, I don't think my penis would be flaccid. And don't you just love the tee shirt?

A fun new experience

2010-10-06T22:57:00.005-04:00

I don't know why I never bothered watching cooking shows on TV before. I think I am going to start watching some more. I have caught a couple on the public TV station (Create) and I found one on CBC.

Anyway, if you are like me and watch cooking shows that feature female cooks, you will be rewarded. What's not to like. I love food to excess and I adore females. To me some of these cooks really get into what they are doing and really describe the how's and whys in a way that is very interesting.

To my eyes, female cooks who really get into cooking are a massive turn on. There is no way I could ever come close to doing what they do. Whats real interesting is that each cook has her own way of making me feel good about being a male. A male who appreciates how the female have so many ways of turning me on. What a gift even though I don't know how to play with it.

Because I don't dare try to go out and play, I have to provide my own enjoyment. I think I am going to get into providing my own enjoyment this evening. I haven't beat one off in a few days and I really have no excuse why not to do it. I mean, whats my penis good for anyway? It's there to give pleasure. Fun, fun, fun. Gosh, I'm glad I was born a male.

Nasty and painful

2010-10-03T01:45:00.005-04:00

I went to the senior center yesterday to get some exercise at the fitness center. Everything went well until after I was done and went to get into my car to head home. My sweats are somewhat baggy because I am obese and I wear a size 5x. The problem with that is that my scrotum is not confined well when wearing the baggy sweats over my boxers. As I have mentioned before, my scrotum makes up for what I am lacking in the penis department. My balls like to jiggle and bounce when they hang low which is most of the time.

Because I am obese I must kind of bend in a way while getting into the car that allows me to clear the steering wheel, seat and the door opening/roof line. Well this maneuver causes my scrotum to hang low while sliding onto the seat. I must have approached the seat in a lower position than I had intended and while sliding across the seat my left nut got caught (or pinched) onto the edge of the seat. When my left leg pushed my body onto the seat squishing my left nut, the pain was severe.

I must have sat still in agony for several minutes hopping the pain would subside. Ouch!

I think I need to conduct a series of tests to see if everything is in order (if you know what I mean). Thank goodness the government has not stepped in and decided that chronic masturbators like me should be denied the fun of viewing on the Internet the incredible female form. It's the only outlet for obese, lazy, retired hermits like me to expel my seed.